Rob and I went to the temple to pray about having another baby.

I got confirmation to stop using birth control for a period of time. In my mind it is until my birthday (I will be turning 42).  I felt good about that.

I didn’t feel like we WILL have another baby or that we WON’T just that we should stop trying to control it. I think probably we won’t, I don’t know why. But now it was time to let go of the condoms.

It was too tempting with them in the house to use them. Once we didn’t use one (while fertile), but later in the week we did.

My friend whose daughter had just given up her pacifier when the “Pacifier Fairy” came and left a present suggested the Condom Fairy come to our house.

So Rob and I agreed the he should come. I am not sure why the condom fairy is male in both of our minds, but he is. He took our condoms and now if it is meant to be, it will be.

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  1. Sheridan, I just read this post and it made me want to go and read many of your previous posts. I, too, have three olderish children (12, 9.5 and 7). For the past FOUR + YEARS we had struggled with knowing what the Lord really wanted for our family (and what WE wanted and were emotionally prepared to deal with).

    Anyway, I just wanted you to know that I can really relate. This decision is so hard and so personal and yet requires so much faith because even if you decide to try you still DON’T GET TO BE IN CHARGE OF IT. Honestly, without my own temple experience, I don’t think I would’ve ever found peace.

    Good luck to you 🙂

    Corinne

    • enjoybirth Reply

      That is the tricky thing isn’t it, WE aren’t in charge!!! I just felt like I was with my first 3, so it is weird not to feel that this time.

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