Calling = no baby?

Not long after the Condom Fairy came, I got a new calling in church.

I must first start by saying that I had always envisioned being in Young Women’s one day while pregnant and with a new baby.  In my patriarchal blessing it talks about serving the Young Women and their seeing me in the beauty as a wife and mother.  What is more beautiful than a pregnant or new mom?

So when I got released and Bro. F went to offer me a new calling I thought it was going to be in Young Women’s.  That seemed like it would totally make sense.

So when he called me as the 1st counselor in the Relief Society my first thought was, “I guess we are not having a baby.”

I even asked, “Not Young Women’s?” I accepted the calling I was given.  I have no idea what that will entail, but I am sure Heavenly Father will help me.

After my appointment I was sad, because I felt like it meant we are not having a baby.

Which on the one hand is silly.  But I guess it would have been equally as silly to assume that if I had gotten called to Young Women’s I WAS going to have a baby.

I just keep thinking, “If it is meant to be, it will happen.”

I am trying not to be too attached to a specific outcome, just be open to whatever is meant to be.

I talked to my friends about it later and they helped me see that it doesn’t have to mean I won’t have a baby.  I know that is true.