Not long after the Condom Fairy came, I got a new calling in church.

I must first start by saying that I had always envisioned being in Young Women’s one day while pregnant and with a new baby.  In my patriarchal blessing it talks about serving the Young Women and their seeing me in the beauty as a wife and mother.  What is more beautiful than a pregnant or new mom?

So when I got released and Bro. F went to offer me a new calling I thought it was going to be in Young Women’s.  That seemed like it would totally make sense.

So when he called me as the 1st counselor in the Relief Society my first thought was, “I guess we are not having a baby.”

I even asked, “Not Young Women’s?” I accepted the calling I was given.  I have no idea what that will entail, but I am sure Heavenly Father will help me.

After my appointment I was sad, because I felt like it meant we are not having a baby.

Which on the one hand is silly.  But I guess it would have been equally as silly to assume that if I had gotten called to Young Women’s I WAS going to have a baby.

I just keep thinking, “If it is meant to be, it will happen.”

I am trying not to be too attached to a specific outcome, just be open to whatever is meant to be.

I talked to my friends about it later and they helped me see that it doesn’t have to mean I won’t have a baby.  I know that is true.

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  1. In my experience, patriarchal blessings are meant to tell us things that apply to us over the course of a lifetime, and the eternities. Just because you weren’t called to the YW now, does not mean that you won’t at a later date. Honestly, I think you attaching the possibility of a pregnancy to a particular calling is superstitious.

    I’m sorry you are struggling with this. It can be so hard when things don’t go as we expect them. I think this is a very common experience of mortality. It’s commonality though, doesn’t diminish the personal grief we feel when our plans or expectations aren’t fulfilled as we would wish.

    • enjoybirth Reply

      I know it is silly and after talking about it with my husband and some close friends I didn’t feel so worried about it. I think that maybe I was feeling overwhelmed by the calling and found this distraction of attaching a baby to it easier to think about then the actual calling???

  2. I’ve been learning about waiting on the Lord’s timing recently, and it can be really difficult to understand at times. We truly “see through a glass, darkly, but then face to face: now I know in part; but then shall I know even as also I am known.”

    Blessings for your new calling! What a wonderful opportunity to serve, love and uplift others.

  3. I sure hope you get pregnant! That would be really cool. But you sure have a cute group of boys!

  4. I just wanted to chime in with an experience I had last year – we were trying for our second baby and had been for a few months when our Bishop called me as the RS President! Agr! I told him of our plans and he looked at me as if to say “and we can’t have a pregnant RS President because…??”. Of course, I accepted the call but figured it meant no baby since you can’t really do both… can you?
    It took a while, but 7 months later, we found out we were expecting! Those 7 months of waiting were really difficult for me; I desperately wanted to be pregnant and it just wasn’t happening for us plus the added pressure of being the RS President. Every stewardship meeting I had with the bishop, inevitably came back round to our struggles. But what a blessing it was to be able to talk with the bishop so often and receive counsel and peace.
    My pregnancy (and birthing experience) were such profound times of spiritual growth for me! During that time, I also gained a testimony of the RS program and what a blessing it is for the women of this church. I connected with so many of the sisters in my ward through serving them (previously, I had never even spoken to them!) and they were such a support to me throughout my pregnancy, and afterwards too.
    I guess what I am trying to say is that we don’t know the Lord’s plans for us but he knows our hearts – both what we want and what we need. I thought I wanted to have another baby, but through that experience, He gave me so much more!

    • enjoybirth Reply

      Thanks for sharing your experience with me. I know that the Lord knows all. 🙂 I actually had another friend who got called as RS president and then found out she was pregnant a week or two later. It was a surprise baby. But in the end both were blessings to her and her family.

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