When I started to bleed the summer before I turned thirteen, my whole heart and soul cried, “No!” I was horrified. I felt like my body was dragging me forward into a future I wasn’t ready to embrace. But there was no turning back. I was now one of them whether I wanted to be or not. And my attitude toward my monthly cycle for the next decade+ was a reflection of that shame…
It is hard to let go of that phase of having babies. Choosing how many babies to have is different for everybody. It is between you and the Lord. Robyn and I talk about letting go of guilt about stopping having babies as well as how we shifted to knowing we are done. It was …
I needed to remain open to having more babies… but also be open to being done. Read More »
Ashlee’s post is about stories and journeys, coming to terms with loss, and transformation and rebirth.
I ran across this poem in an old Ensign magazine and felt it appropriate to share for Pregnancy and Infant Awareness Loss Day. Although many generations stand between her and the women of today, the bond of having experienced loss bridges the gap. Sending our love to all those families who have experienced pregnancy and …
A Widow’s Lullaby at Winter Quarters, Makes Me Cry Every Time Read More »
Heather: When my husband and I first started trying for a baby we had some unexpected difficulties. My sister-in-law gave me the book, “Taking Charge of your Fertility” by Toni Weschler and right away I started charting my cycles, hoping we could help a baby come. After a few months of charting I was starting …
Do Very Early Miscarriages Count, Even if You have No Proof? Read More »
The following are excerpts from my journal Saturday-Sunday – warning loss mentioned. Here are the previous posts to catch up: Surprise I got Pregnant Adjusting to the idea but worried too Definitely a Miscarriage Saturday – Finding comfort in our book still bleeding pretty steadily. Cramping has gone down. Spent the morning taking T2 to …
Did you know that Dr. Ellis Shipp, one of Utah’s first female doctors (who trained many women to become nurses and midwives), wrote a hymn in the hymn book?
In my interview with Lani, the birth story she chose to share was a miscarriage that felt so spiritual. She didn’t expect that it could be spiritual, but it was. “Everything relating to preparing to have children, getting pregnant, giving birth have been a few of the ways I have had the most spiritual experiences …
I didn’t expect a miscarriage to feel spiritual, but it did. Read More »
Guest post from Liz Johnson… When people ask me how many children I have, I don’t really know how to answer. The proper response is “four,” because that’s how many I tuck in at night – three beautiful boys and a darling baby girl. But in my heart, I want to answer “five.” And then I guiltily admit that I feel like I should want to answer “seven.” . . .
This is part 2 of Jenifer’s interview. Someone said to her after a miscarriage – “Just don’t worry about it. It was a nothing baby.” She could not accept that. It wasn’t until years later that she had an experience that helped her have the courage to face that and heal from it… all because …
I rejected it when she said, “It was a nothing baby” Read More »
